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Saturday, September 8, 2012



yes, I was...I cant even open my mouth when he's around

He was a common stranger..I never knew his name
but I always see him during my morning trip to the train
he would always wear this perfume that smells like the sea
it reminds me of my childhood memories
a comfort remembrance that takes me back where i belong

One day, I have a vacant seat at my right side
I was hoping it was his place, a reserved seat and
a permanent place in my heart. I was busy over the
cold winds that touches my face unto the open windows of the train. 
Then somebody sat beside me

It wasn't him.Of course! how will somebody seat beside me
no one will dare...everyone disgusts me because im overweight
and ugly. I looked over to my right and was surprised
I was was him..he looked at me..specially my face
I cant stand the stare so I continues to pay attention to the
view in the window...I started to breathe hands are closed
30 minutes passed, and i was exhausted
paying attention to him. I closed my eyes for a moment..


she was amazingly simple
I dont know her name..but the glances that lasts in seconds was
already a gift to me whenever I rode the train going to my work
every morning wasn't complete not until I see those eyes and stare

I always make a brush of air from my coat whenever I pass through her seat
its just beautiful seeing those waves of hair freely dancing upon her bare face
that face were only i could have her approval to put a smile on its landscape

Its funny how I look behind her, i already had her kissed upon my lips
I already hugged her a thousand times
I already caught her waist..and pulled close to me..

then the time came where i have no seat to choose to but her beside

I think she never i'd love to connect and share this feelings for her
I turned into my glance, then I caught her head over my shoulders...
I wish she could stay like this for a while.
I felt the rush over my veins back to my heart. I am at the edge of my seat

I pulled her off..since I was to get off the train..
she's still calmly sleeping..


I woke up and saw he wasn't there..
at my surprise I saw a note sticked onto the back of the chair facing me

Seeing that note...i took the courage not to glance at him the next day
I gave him a wave and a smile..
from then on we never part

Love story from (c) Clai 2012

Saturday, May 19, 2012

The old woman who despise love

when it comes to the last person in the lane
how come there's no person who come and stay...
all of them go and leave me....

Fate must've hated me
if I like him...he's probable taken or in love with someone else
If He likes me....I dont like spark and all

I try to meet men
but they all was looking for something I can not give
not until I get a ring on my finger
whenever I turned into this conversation with them
they dont like my idea..

He then starts to ignore me
He then starts to say goodbye
He talks about things i dont like
make things to hurt me...

I know that there's this person who will perfectly
understands my situation...
problem is..they are billions of them! out there...somewhere
I try to be observant as I meet, know and talk to them
but sometimes...its tiring to find that someone
will swept off my feet...

I grew hopeless everyday
learning that Im all alone

I have all...
all the things to be happy...
but the thing that will make me happier
is the only missing part of my life

Im growing old....
I pass each days as if
I have wasted another time without that special person

Im worried about me..
I'll be alone all my life right after I grew tired of searching for him...
tomorrow is a step....days and days pass I become weak

I was betrayed by love
nobody likes me

my head is tired finding from left to right
there's no time to love anymore

my hair turned gray
and my skin sagged and crumpled

My body has become heavy that I might not be able to stand
Everyday I woke up with a sight of white ceiling
Then at night my eyes become worn out unable to carry the
heavy eyelid....then I realized it never opened

Friday, March 16, 2012

Love doesn't age : AUTHOR"S NOTES

hello Im Clai
I am so glad that somebody is reading my stories..
I am very happy when I see the page views on rise

this story was very close to my heart
because I was the eldest daughter of Ricky
yes this was my father's story
I hope
I have gave you the inspiration
I hope I have quenched youre heart
I love my father that it made it easy for me to
write the words in letters...

Thursday, March 15, 2012

Love doesn't age part 6: The day I part

I was crying alone in the house
when my eldest daughter sent me this sms

"daddy! I got 76/100 in the exam...I promise I'll
pass the Nursing Board exam, I'll be your nurse..
I know I was called to do this, because I am destined
to take care of you...I love you daddy, do u still have
a fever?"

I went to every houses of my friends
with a smile...and I read them this message
and they thought that im really lucky father

My fever is slowly getting higher
my hands are already shaking
and sometimes I just dont feel like
waking up and standing again
until I didn't wake up at all

I can feel what's happening to me
My wife brought me to the hospital again
and this time its worse...
they put tubes on my nose and my mouth
I can feel not only 5 times a needle
struck into my skin...
I have never felt this pain before...
I was agonizing..
I got mad sometimes with my wife
how could she let something happen to me like this?
but I understand, she is doing everything
to save me...she didn't want me to leave
but I am near to give up....its been a week
with this tubes on me..I broke down...I grasp my last breath
I felt someone hold my hand
I knew it was my eldest daughter
Im proud of her...I know its sad to leave at the exact
day of her exam, not an ideal day to leave...but Im already weak
that I can't stand another day anymore

one more breath....and that's the last....
I felt the pain slowly going away...
and yes I have seen the light
and I heard the voice of my wife

"Goodbye Ricky, I love you and I will miss you
I know you dont have the pain already, be happy
and look after us..thank you for giving me the love
you have made my life whole, you have upraised me
for who i whatever you have done bad to me
I forgive you, and I hope you forgive me too..
so long Ricky, my love, my everything
and we will see each other someday...together again"

and I continued walking to the light...

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Love doesnt age part 5: A good father

A new place a new life
I knew I have won over my demons

this time I have kept up from my daughters and my beautiful wife
I cook them meals everyday
I go to groceries and a lot of household chores for them
I dont care if I was tagged as a HOUSEBAND
because I love doing things like this for them.

I have been doing this things for nearly 10 years
I am all clean
closer to God
a good father, wish i was a long time ago

Then suddenly
I didn't woke up...
I recognized my wife's hand shaking me
hearing her voice

the next thing I saw when I opened my eyes
was my eldest daughter's face
everything was white
she said I was in the ICU...and has been sleeping for 3 days already
I have recovered so very greatful that i have a daughter

the next day I was at our home...
I still went to my doctor for post check ups
and the last meeting with him I remember...
the doctor asked my wife to leave the office at the moment
because there was something he needs to tell me..

that my liver has reached its last stage
and I have to leave this world
any time soon...

I went out the doctor's office with a smile..
my wife asked but i never told him the truth..
I know she'll be devastated...

Sunday, March 4, 2012

love doesn't age part 4: making my own family

Me and Laila had 2 beautiful daughters...

We never had a perfect relationship
I have brought several pains to my wife
I went home drunk every night
we sold some of our stuffs without her knowing
I got in to fights, got jailed few times..
I thought i will change..because I already have my family
instead I became a plague
I was a failure to my wife and my daughters
I didn't have a job, I was just staying outside and going out
with friends using my wife's earned money from the business
we both built..where I should suppose help her..
but all i think was im a failure that i could not do anything anymore
to change it! my demons have told me to go the evil ways
I have bad peers around me, they asked me to use this
white powder burn it and inhale the one split second
I forgot where I was, and what I was thinking...I thought i was in heaven
I became immune and so I tried it everyday...until I dont have the money
to buy those white magic powders...I forced myself to get every thing
from our business, sold my car just for those fantastical seconds that will
free me from my worries...

I was facing the mirror and mourned on what i have become
then I saw my daughter at the back
"daddy why are you crying?"
I cant tell her what I am going through for she was just a young mind
and she will never understand..I shouted at her and told her to get out!
the next seconds I faced the mirror...I saw blood running through my nose
I already put ice added pressure on my nose bridge but it wouldn't stop
bleeding...I fainted and the next time I woke up..I was at the hospital
my wife was holding my hand worried...
the doctor came and we talked about my condition
I heard the doctors words and it runned in my head a million times
"You have Liver cirrhosis, you must stop taking alcohol or it will burn
the rest of your liver..your'e in 2nd stage..if you dont stop, you'll have2
2 years to live"

I was looking at my daughters they were just little
I dont want to live them remembering their father was just
an alcoholic, drug addict, trouble maker...
they dont have any idea...I look at them with love
and overcoming it...I gave them a hug and a kiss in their cheeks
and tears came pouring like rain...

the next day I stopped drinking...I stopped everything
and I told my wife "lets move to another place and start our new lives"

Thursday, March 1, 2012

Love doesn't age part 3: Serendipity

Life has been good enough to me...I have moved on to what happened

I went to the local grocery store and I saw this tall lady
who looked very familiar to me...
I took my steps to get near her, and i was surprised it was her
the beautiful woman who interviewed me..I am so glad to see her
but why does this heart keeps on beating like its coming out of my chest
I look at her in slow motion
and I can see her bright eyes....

from then on

I would always visit the grocery to visit that beautiful manager Laila
my feet is always taking me to this grocery even if i dont have any
needs to buy at all...
I have sent her roses
recorded  lionel richie's song "hello" with my voice and send it to her
send her hundreds of letters...with my kisses on it
I am in love again

I knew from the time i saw her again on that grocery
"She'll be my wife"

time has passed by and I asked her to go home with me
She agreed and right after we landed...
the next week...we got married in the court
the next week...we got married in the church

and so I vowed to love her forever

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